This past weekend the daughter of an old friend got married. Amidst the joy of the celebration, came a time for reflection.  A boutonniere was saved to be placed upon the head stone of the bride’s father.  He passed away in 2013.

As I head into my third round of chemo – I wonder if my daughter will have to save a boutonniere for me.  These are the things that make it tough, I know that I will never get to everything before I go.  But I’d like to experience many of them.

I’d like to see my kids graduate and start a career, I’d like to hold a grandchild, I’d like to see a clean garage!  I guess that I can control at least one of these desires, the other ones are too far away and out of my hands. Upon reflection I guess it all is really out of my hands.  That doesn’t mean I have to like it!